Sunday, January 11, 2009

Erase. Replace. Embrace.

We had dinner at D'Amico (bottomless wine!) with our friends Liz and Tom and their three kids tonight. Their Sam and our Mac are just three days apart.

Liz used to be on a dairy-free diet just like me, but now Sam is fine with milk proteins. I'm happy for her, of course, but I'm also insanely jealous.

"How is it being able to eat that?" I asked her, as she leaned over to take a bite of her daughter's cookie. "Does that taste good?" She downplayed it, but let's face it, we all know it tasted GREAT.

Yesterday, when I was having dinner with Jordan, the server brought me a fork "just in case I wanted a bite" of her flourless chocolate cake with mocha whipped cream and caramel drizzle.

I'm sure that tasted pretty great, as well.

It wouldn't be so bad not being able to eat delicious things if I could just get full, but I find that pretty hard to do on a dairy-free diet.

Tonight, shortly after I wolfed down my cheeseless pasta dish, I popped a bag of popcorn. Then twenty minutes later, I scarfed a peanut butter sandwich on toast.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Dan asked, staring at the peanut butter dripping off my chin. "You just keep eating and eating."

"I'm just so hungry," I told him. So, so hungry. For butter and cheese and lattes and soups with cream bases.

"Well, you only have five months to go," Dan said, laughing.

I tell you, I'm counting the days.


M.A. said...

I'm going to have to remember that "bottomless wine" thing.

cg said...

You are one strong and self discipline woman! Good for you for sacrificing so much for the good of you kid! Very proud of you

Only five months Dan says - he shouls show some support and join you for a week or so ;-)

LH said...

I can't believe you're going to Florida. I feel like I'm going to miss you, even though, we already live in different states.